@anonymous

[windsongs]

I have a question for the group. Has anyone tried to find family or friends they have lost over the years, or a trace that they might have passed through the Netherworld? Have you been successful?

If not, would you? What would you say to them if you managed to find them?

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text ↪ anonymous

[nagano]

There's only one person I would look for, and I don't want to look for them. If this is purgatory or even hell, then their existence here confirms the worst for me.

But if I did find them here?

I would want to know why they left me. Why no one would tell me the truth. Why a child had to be hurt over secrets.

[windsongs]

I can understand that. A part of me doesn't want to find them, but there are so many things that I want to say. So many things to apologize for.
And I suppose that finding them would be confirmation that they're really gone

I'm sure you've heard this a million times, but I understand how that feels. Hurt doesn't even begin to describe it. Betrayal maybe?
No one should leave their child in the dark like that. It doesn't matter what that truth might be

[nagano]

I just want closure. Given our situations here, I don't think there's much else I can ask for. Too much time has been lost.

...So? Who are you going to look for? [ Wow Kaito, just like that? ]

[windsongs]

Closure huh? I know how that feels. I suppose for me this is less about closure and more apologizing for not being there when I should have been. A selfish decision got them killed, and even if I know that saying sorry won't make things better, maybe then I can move on too.

[ Wow, this person is really going to throw that out there? The chat window lists her as typing for a while. ]

A family member, like you. Someone I lost when I was a teenager.

[nagano]

...I can relate. The road I walked looks a little different, but I get that desire. [ He can only relate so much. Who else goes directly to the Underworld to bail out their dead family members? ]

I don't know what exactly happened, but I've got a hunch that whoever you want to apologize to could probably care less. If you lost them as a kid, they'll probably just be happy to see how much you've grown.

Maybe I'm completely off the mark, but that's just my hunch.

[windsongs]

[ She would if she knew how, without hesitation. ]

I feel like most roads either cross or come to the same end point. I get the impression that I would say the same to you if our roles were reversed

You may be right, and I might have accepted that if I was a bit younger and didn't know what I know now.
All signs point toward unfinished business for the both of us, and if that was enough to prevent me from moving on, I'm worried that it might be the same for her
I let her die. I won't let her suffer in the afterlife because of me