@ANONYMOUS

[appeale]

hey. what's your shadow like?

trust me i get why nobody wants to talk about this whole thing. neither do i. but it kinda seems like we ought to compare notes and we can do it anonymous. or you can just use this to vent about how your shadow's an asshole idc

mostly i just keep seeing people say stupid shit and claim it was their shadow and i can't tell if this is just a case of your_experiences_are_not_universal.jpeg (sorry. obviously i don't have the meme on me) or if i'm going crazy. bcuz mine is so quiet i can't even tell it's there usually. so what's the deal???

(before you say i must be a good person who doesn't have much of a dark side: lol. but i'm not some evil psychopath who already acts on their worst impulses either)

and has anyone had any luck getting theirs to fuck off?

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[fallingsand]

it's fine, i deserve it. i should really just stop bothering to try, right?

[ Or maybe this is his shadow, oops. ]

sounds like it was looking out for you. you should feel lucky to have a shadow that's useful.

[appeale]

[ SIR???? HELLO???? ]

mister, either you're even more pathetic than me or your shadow is in your head right now

that's kind of what i'm worried about! why is it helpful!!! what does it say about me that my shadow is the nice one?? what if it lulls me into a false sense of security and then it walks me off a cliff or something????

[fallingsand]

so what if it is? it isn't wrong.

and who knows. except it, the shadow i mean, probably. maybe it has worse plans for you than that and doesn't want you to eat dirt too soon.

[appeale]

do you normally drop your self-loathing problems on random anonymous strangers

[ she knows she asked but. what does she even say to something like that!!! ]

LITERALLY WHAT COULD BE WORSE THAN KILLING ME

[fallingsand]

yeah well if you didn't want that, you shouldn't have asked about people's shadows, huh?

[ Boom, mic drop... okay, not really, but yeah. That. Now to move on to a list of things that might be worse than a second death! ]

let's see. planning to turn you into a monster? get you lost in the shadowlands forever? using you to hurt lots of other people? dragging everything out so they can enjoy your slow march towards wanting to end yourself?

[appeale]

you could have just told me it talks shit about you and not given me the tmi about how you think it's right!!!

sorry but none of those are worse than death. i mean, have you ever died? not like this but actually experienced death. because it fucking sucks.

[fallingsand]

what do you mean not like this? everyone here died! we're all dead!

[appeale]

i'm not getting into that, people have all kinds of arguments about whether we're really dead right now or not

what i'm saying is, do you REMEMBER dying?? do you know what it felt like to die

[fallingsand]

the house was collapsing and i was still inside. i don't remember if i was crushed or not but i really hope it was too fast to feel?

[appeale]

it's not about the pain of the thing that killed you. there's a point after that. when you die. it doesn't feel like you just got knocked out. you really stop existing.

at least that's how it was for me the first time i died

[fallingsand]

I'm sorry what? you've died more than once?!

[appeale]

yeah i died and got reincarnated. so i can say pretty confidently that dying is the worst outcome

[fallingsand]

wait a second if you died and reincarnated and then died again, why didn't you just reincarnate again?!

[appeale]

yeah you can see why some people think we might not really be dead

but i have no idea. i don't even know why i reincarnated the first time, so maybe that was just god giving me one more chance and i blew it

[fallingsand]

wow.
it'd be really depressing to have god give you a second chance at life and then bam, you die again really soon after.