@mikey / bloom

[invinciblemikey]

(he's fucking sick. the joys of loving and being loved in return, and also, merely thinking that he's not loved back. absolutely thrilling.

he hates this. big means that leaving his home is being very hard, and he's breaking out fevers, having difficulty breathing, and much worse than he has been in his life. that says something.)

looking for errand people. will pay accordingly.

p.s.: my little sister used to read stories about the whole coughing flowers situation. it's called hanahaki. something something, one-sided love, get that person to love you or die trying but literally? i don't remember much else. the younger japanese people might know better.

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[windsongs]

I want to know what happened
so be as honest as you have to be

[invinciblemikey]

depending on the amount, killing people over debt is shooting yourself in the foot. you don't get paid if someone's dead. the most it does is terrify other people into paying, and that's only if it's a small one.

if the yakuza had something to do with it, it's either because they wanted to scare someone else into paying, or because her debt was small and she could be used as an example.

if there is any debt, to begin with. maybe she just crossed someone wrong. or seemed like she'd betray them. if someone related to someone i killed came sniffing, they'd be dead on the spot.

i cannot stress enough how much i hate this for you.

[windsongs]

I knew the whole debt thing was bullshit

I wanna think that my mom had nothing to do with the yakuza but I don't know
she kept to herself. I wouldn't see her much, and near the end she was... off

the other theory I had is she knew something
she was a clairvoyant. she could see into the future. I didn't find this out until after she was gone
so that was the other lead I was pursuing
all I know is she isn't the type to do something like that
so I was looking into what happened and why

cw body... mismanagement... awful shit...

[invinciblemikey]

that'd do it.

if i had a plan and some lady could ruin it, i'd shoot her three times.

(hahahahahaha.)

but also making it look like a suicide is... meh. very likely they also wanted to communicate to someone. when shit like that happens we either just leave it or make them into fish food.

... im sorry, biki.

[windsongs]

[ She has to take a second to remind herself that that wasn't an admission of blame, but a very chilling hypothetical.

They wanted to communicate to someone... ]

it's ok. I was the one who asked you to be honest
that does confirm some theories I had
I'm still not fully convinced it was anything like that, but that gives me some things to look into when I get back
I trust those cops back then about as much as I trust the Hierarchy now

[ Heavily implying she's going to keep sticking her nose where it doesn't belong? Absolutely. ]

cw trev spoilers

[invinciblemikey]

absolutely don't trust cops they're actually pretty malleable

i've been on tv, they filmed us, and they ain't got a thing on me still.

... i'll tell you literally anything and everything you want to know. just don't look into this. please.

(he can't take emma dying twice.)

[windsongs]

[ W̴h̸a̵t̷ ̸d̶o̵e̵s̸ ̵h̶e̵ ̴e̵x̸p̷e̵c̵t̷ ̴y̷o̶u̶ ̷t̴o̶ ̷d̴o̴,̴ ̶g̶i̵v̶e̸ ̵u̸p̴?̵ ̸Y̶o̷u̶'̴v̶e̷ ̶g̷o̵t̶t̴a̸ ̷l̵o̵o̵k̴ ̶a̸t̶ ̷t̸h̸i̸s̸ ̸f̶r̴o̴m̴ ̶e̶v̵e̸r̵y̶ ̴a̴n̶g̷l̷e̸.̷ ̴T̵h̴a̶t̴ ̸i̶n̵c̶l̸u̶d̵e̴s̵ ̸r̷u̶l̴i̴n̴g̴ ̵t̸h̷i̸s̶ ̴o̸u̸t̴.̸

Hibiki almost blows him off, her shadow poking at some deep-seated anger she has on the subject. But the please stops her. A quick reread makes it clear that he's pleading. ]

tell me what you would do if you were in my position

[invinciblemikey]

does it matter

i ain't you.

all i can do is, from someone in my position, who knows exactly what i would do, just ask you for your own good to drop it.

[windsongs]

you're right. you aren't

I just want to know the who and why
so I know who to return the favor to

[ Staring down at that line of text she didn't write, Hibiki hesitates. She should say that wasn't her, and she normally would... but not this time. ]

[invinciblemikey]

you know, biki.

all my siblings were murdered. all three. for two i was there, i watched it. it's not worth it. there are people who would definitely rather die than have you take a life, and quite frankly, die trying.

i understand the feeling, i am on the other side of your situation, and i can tell you. this is a terrible idea. honor her and move on.

(be better than him. SOMEONE'S GOT TO.)

[windsongs]

[ There's a lot here. He understands it from both sides, knows how it feels and the road she would be on if she looks in the wrong places.

But... ]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. I mean it.
this isn't just me trying to offer sympathy

my mom left me a notebook from right before she died
I just got it a couple of months ago
if everything she's written in there is true and will happen, I need to figure this out
whether they were involved or if there's another group in play

this isn't just about getting closure

[invinciblemikey]

do as you please.

(he tried. he ain't no takemitchy, after all.

besides, the likelihood of her just sprouting back into life feels so small, that he really doesn't see it happening. he just has to make sure she doesn't end up like him here.)